So my options have just been limited. No teaching English in Japan I did not get an interview with the program. I realized that I was almost relieved. I had been trying to let go of my need to be secure and be where I want to be and who I want to be in each moment. I thought I could use Japan as a way of being halfway secure. It was a guaranteed job with pay while traveling. Which is nice, but I am not sure I want to spend that much time in Japan, especially not working for the bureaucracy. At least not at this point, maybe in the future. Right now I am tired of being told where to go or how to do things because I need to find my way of doing things and where I want to go how I want to get there.
I want less structure. Well not really, I want to tear down my structure and rebuild, using the same pieces. That is why this blog is Upcycled Bliss. I want to rebuild what I want to keep out of myself and I want to get rid of what is not serving me. I know a few places I want to go. How Liz Gilbert in Eat, Pray, Love wanted to go to Italy, India, and Bali, I want to go to India, the Camino de Santiago, and Machu Picchu. I am not going in quite so direct of a route. I do not have enough money to do all of those right of way. The first stop is a central location for jumping off.
Australia work holiday visa sounds like a good starting point. Australia is close to Indonesia (and Bali which I do want to go to also!), Thailand, Malaysia, India, etc.
I have posts to back date. I was too afraid of losing my place where I am risking where I want to be. Instead I realized i need to focus on making where I am where I want to be. there is absolutely no reason to be afraid of going where I want to go and being who I want to be. The fear is hanging on to where I was and believing it is where I am. I was once told that someone saw me as swinging on vines, I imagine like Tarzan. The only problem is I am clinging to the vine I am on making me miss the vine I should be swinging to. To get to the next vine I need to live my life with intention. And this is my intention. Here it is world.
